i keep bouncing between “im gonna give that asshole a piece of my mind” and “fuck i miss him so much i just want his arms around me” either way i cant stop crying
I JUST REALLY FUCKING MISS MY BOYFRIEND LIKE IS HE EVEN MY BOYFRIEND ANYMORE?? IDK HE HASN’T TEXTED OR CALLED IN ALMOST A WEEK i feel like absolute shit rn im gonna throw up
blogging from my brand new laptop B)
im ery drunk right now and very mad at my boyfriend but i really like him maybe even love him but i just wish he would text me more
i understand that his job is so stressful, he pretty much workls 15 hour days every day, but he can take 5 minutes to call me. i want to talk to him i want to help him and make him feel better
oh and today was our 2 months which isnt a big deal in itself, but he’s the one that suggested we do something, and then he ditches me to party at whistler (a mountain popular for skiiing and snowboarding) for his friend’s birthday liike ???????
he keeps using his job and work as an excuse to never text or call but it literally only takes 2 seconds. on one hand i know hhe likes me, like i don’t want to be all insecure and wonder if he likes me or not, i trust him when he says he loves spending time with me, but on the other hand, if he wanted to contact me he would???
and he’s the one that brought up breaking up, not me. “i don’t know if you want to do this if it’s going to be like this” (referring to him working so much). like is that him projecting? cause of course i want to be with him, i’m not going to break up with him because his job sucks. i told him that. literally all i want him to do is message and contact me more, its really not tha t hard.
idk when we’re together in person i can feel, i can TELL that he really likes me, but when we’re apart he makes absolutely zero effort. i just want to knpw when he’s thinking about me. i can deal with not seeing him for a while, it sucks hardvore but i can deal with it, what i can’t deal with is absolutely zero contact.
ugh idk i wanna be with him so bad but i’m not sure he thinks i’m as important as i think he is, i’m not sure if he even wants to be in a relationship at the moment
all i know is that i’m not gonna give up until he says no more